I was having a lot of doubts about Mr. International throughout the week since he didn’t seem so responsive and told me he had all sorts of plans during the weekend. So Friday night, he told me he might pass by my place because he needed to go to the hardware store. I said that I also needed to pick-up some toilet paper so we could go together. So he helped me fill up my gas tank and we went to the hardware store. He said he would buy me dinner. He’s very much the kind of guy that wants to take care of me, and likes this idea of buying me dinner, so I gladly accept that. As I drove him home, I thought I would just drop him off but he directed me to his garage and I came up. We watched a movie together and he talked about me coming over on Saturday. I said I thought he was busy, and he said he was only busy during the day. Huh, so he wants to spend the whole weekend together again! I was planning to just work through the weekend, but I like this idea better.
Saturday he had plans with his parents and I came over after. He made me dinner and we just basically killed time together watching another movie and playing some little trivia games together. We had sex, and it was amazing as usual. See, in the beginning, I think it’s some kind of fluke that sex was so good with him, but nope, it’s just really good and I can’t explain why, it’s just chemistry. He passed out immediately after sex, and I eventually fell asleep too. We got 12 hours of sleep! Feels amazing.
In the morning, I showered while he made me breakfast. He is very insistent on doing all of the cooking. I don’t think he wants me to do any of the cooking. This is a very new concept to me in a relationship, as cooking was always something that I figured that I brought to the table. Again, he wants to be the giver. He doesn’t even let me help him clean up. I think this is something that took me some time to understand about men. So instead of insisting to help or give, I just sit back and accept and be grateful for.
He put on another movie in the morning, and I really just wanted to have sex again. He had a migraine, and when we did have sex again, he said he got a headache when he orgasmed. Apparently it is a thing for people who have migraines. So actually both times I had sex with him this weekend, I didn’t orgasm, but it doesn’t make it shitty at all. This is still one of the best sex I’ve had in my life. Oh, and I forgot to mention that Mr. International’s kinky side has yet to come out although I found in his drawer when I reached for his condoms that he has a ton of sex stuff. He has these pocket pussy toys, which he says were gag gifts, and he has these arm and leg cuff things. I think he was trying to explain some of this to me, because he’s a bit uncomfortable that I saw some of it.
The actual kinky bit, I think that is a turn-on, but I’m not comfortable with him recalling past sexual encounters with previous lovers. He said he got the cuffs from a previous lover, and has pulled it out for a one night stand before, but he said that he felt it would be disrespectful if he brought it out for me. I asked if he thought I was a prude, and he kind of gave me this round about answer, which wasn’t offensive but he realizes it’s a touchy subject. I think I’m a very open minded person when it comes to sex, but I’ve just been with very vanilla people, is that I told him. Anyway, I told him I’d be down to turn the kink up with him should he want to try things out.
On the other hand, I think that he sees me as someone he respects and is a bit apprehensive to show this side of himself. I like that he feels that there is potential for me to be more than just a sexual partner, because that’s not what I’m looking for. I like that I can be myself around him, relax, kick back. I can wear very casual clothes with him, and feel like a lady.
We plan to go walk the dogs, who have been staying with my parents. He talks about how much he loves my dog (yes, just one), and I wonder if his emulation of his love for my one dog is really him trying to express how he feels about me. His exact words, “I know it’s only been a month, or a month and a half, but I am really feeling that I’m in love with you,”. He said this about my dog. Tell me that’s not an emulation of his feelings for me. When he’s actually with my dogs, he shows them a lot of attention, but actually he’s still focused on me.
While walking past the beachside homes, I pointed to the largest house and asked him to buy it for me jokingly. I recall making that same joke with Mystery Man before. Instead of laughing, Mr. International said sure! He then said that he needs to figure out whether he wants to stay at his current position long-term first. And I think he’s being really serious. And I also realize some time ago that basically, if he decides to stay at his current job, that he would be looking to settle down and that also means relationship-wise he would more likely be open to letting this get more serious.
So, at this point, I just really have no interest in seeing anyone else. And if he is going to dedicate his time to me in this capacity then yeah I am also willing to see where this could go too. I just got my period, and, this weekend basically marks 6 weeks since we’ve been seeing each other. He already booked movie tickets for next weekend.
I don’t believe that I shouldn’t hedge my bets on this relationship. There are a lot of things that makes me unsure of him. While he treats me very well at the moment, he falls into the category of being “my type”, which mean he is an overly confident man who knows how to get his way, and isn’t afraid to manipulate people to do so. He can be unknowingly flirty. Despite his juvenile stories, he does come across as someone who has matured and is looking to seriously dedicate time towards a meaningful relationship.
And while I do believe in still keeping my eyes open at this time, I also believe that I also need to put something in to show that I truly would like to see where this could go. I like Mr. International a lot. And while I thought I liked Mr. Photographer and Nugget Master, I’m really impressed that Mr. International has shown me that there is better. Dare, I say it, but I think that I could love him. Although, at this point in time, I honestly cannot say that I love him. And that makes me feel good. I don’t want to be further along this relationship than he is, and at this time I feel comfortable that we both seem to be hand in hand and at the same spot with this relationship.