This past Wednesday, I went on two mini dates. I had lunch with Nugget Master, and of course, we get McDonald’s chicken nuggets. He showed up at the wrong McDonald’s and was late so I went ahead and ordered. I had an important meeting right after lunch, so I couldn’t stay. I joked about how his “wife” must not be letting him out so that’s why he has to do lunch dates with me. The previous time I saw him was nearly 2 weeks prior and we also did lunch. It’s so odd. Nugget Master and I kissed a bit. He grabbed some coffee, told me that I’d better get going if I’m to make my meeting on time. He reminded me that we’ll be seeing each other on Sunday.
Then later that same day, before the workday even ended, I met up with Mr. International in the lobby of his work building. His work is directly across from the office space that I work out of. He has been super chatty over text. He shows urgency in being there on time and we chatted in the lobby during his working hours for a good 45 mins. Mr. International is someone that is fiercely loyal and has a handful of very close friendships. What kind of scares me about him is that he seems to not have a problem “taking down” other people who somehow hurt or offend those who are close to him. For example, he told me about an incident where he found out his friend’s boyfriend cheated on her and he went ahead and deregistered him from his own school. And another incident where he was head of his school’s student council and went to great lengths to make the school dances profitable. When he did make the dances profitable, he felt justified in garnishing these profits. I’m not the most ethical person, but not knowing him and having him admit these things makes me a bit apprehensive. I did not kiss Mr. International as I left. I can sense that he kept this to a minimum since he was in the lobby of his work office.
Mr. International goes through great lengths to see me. I told him that I’m working late, and he offered to bring me dinner. I politely declined but made plans to see him Thursday night instead. Mr. International is quite available actually, and even goes through lengths to text me while he is out doing his favourite activity – archery tag. Thursday night, Mr. International rushes over to my place immediately after work and doing his work group run. We ordered and ate dinner, he helped me do a bunch of handyman things such as fix my clocks to the right time and put up my new shower curtains, watched a movie together and gave me a massage. He asked me to take off my shirt for the massage and I obliged. He unhooked my bra and now, here I am just topless. He asked if he should take my pants off and it’s kind of difficult to take pants off without exposing myself. I was game anyway.
After the massage, I turned around in the nude to kiss him. We made out with me naked and him fully clothed. I said it seems kind of unfair that he is still fully clothed and he quickly took his shirt off. Mr. International is hot! He is slim and very toned with a darker skin tone, which I find attractive. We moved things to the bedroom. Mr. International is overall a very giving kind of guy. He is very selfless in bed, which is very different than what I am used to. He went down on me, and he let me do what I wanted, and he wanted to make sure that I came before he finished. It was very hard for me to come because Mr. International is very much on the gentle side. Finally, when he was behind me I really felt it building. It wasn’t an intense orgasm but it was enough to get me off. He couldn’t tell that I was finished, so I had to tell him after the fact. I loved when he orgasmed inside me and I could feel his convulsions, that is seriously so sexy!
We cuddled afterwards and I told him it was great. He wasn’t so sure of his performance and I think he felt good that I said that. I told him I thought he was really sexy and he said he thought I was too. Mr. International stayed the night. He’s so respectful and treats me like a man ought to treat a woman that he desires. He woke up early so that he could walk home (he’s a walker) and take a shower before going to work.
Since we worked close to each other, I could have got up and walked with him too but I was so exhausted! I went back to sleep for another hour and half. He messaged me and told me he left his fitness tracker. Of course he did. It was clearly an attempt to see me again. I’m fine with that. He said he wasn’t feeling so well and thought that maybe he could have got me sick. I told him if I’m sick then it’s on him to help me feel better.
I like Mr. International a lot. And things seem to be going well. He seemed very open to the idea of me coming over again on Saturday and even meeting one of my dogs (I don’t think he’s ready to meet both of them yet). I’m inclined to cancel on Sunday and maybe pull the “I’m sick” excuse with Nugget Master. Nugget Master hasn’t even messaged me and I feel like it’s just not going anywhere. I’ve now been dating him for nearly a month and he has really turned cold on me recently.
Where is The Photographer? He’s still strung up on his ex-girlfriend and has been even more MIA than ever. Whenever I do message him (and it’s always me first these days), his answers are short and curt. I think he wants to keep the window open for me, but at this time doesn’t even want to engage. I’m not even banking on this guy anymore. But if he does so happen to come back at this moment in time, I’d be lying if I said I wouldn’t consider dropping everything to be with him.
The other thing that I’ve been thinking about is falling in love again. There is this thought in the back of my mind about whether I could ever fall like I had for the loves of my life. I don’t feel that way about any of the guys that I’ve dated recently. I do wonder if I’m capable of loving someone that much again.